See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland
It’s 7:00a.m. August 23rd, 2012 and I’ve just started my first year of high school. I should be really excited but instead, my heart is racing. There I was conquering fears that I was hyperaware of, and even some I never knew existed. High school was not an easy transition from middle school. But those four years have definitely been worth it.
I believe that this chapter of my life my 19th year, God has been shifting things around in my life whether it be friendships, family, situation-ships & finances. He’s positioning me for my season of blessings. I’ve grown a closer relationship with him and I’ve learned how to move on and forward while embracing more parts of myself.
I’m finding my inner peace. I no longer desire to be here or there. Instead, I find myself patiently waiting on God and whatever challenges he wants me to overcome. Oftentimes we speak about doing healthier things, letting go SOUL-searching, but we never actually put effort towards making these transitions. It’s not easy to leave your comfort zone ever or even to open up a part of yourself that you’ve held so close but trust me the decision is so worth it. So many doors will start to open for you. So many times the answers to our problems are right in front of us.
I found myself letting my fears control me and unaware of me, they were standing in my way. My choice to study journalism and inspire others while helping them find their purpose was made long before I had planned to attend college and I’m so thankful to see it coming to fruition. I’ve always wanted to engage & learn more about the media industry more than ever before. I just felt that being in the actual presence would be the only way to bring my true gift alive. I’m thankful that despite my fears of God taking me to new places I’ve been able to persevere and keep going beyond my limits. Overcoming these challenges I’ve been able to build confidence in my future endeavors.
I reflect on my childhood pictures sometimes when I was just a bundle of innocence and I was ignorant but yet willing to learn, and think to myself, “You cannot even imagine the things God is preparing to shape and mold you into. He’s made you strong but you just don’t know how much of a conqueror you really are.” I feel that way now there’s that familiar feeling l feel young and ready to explore and succeed in unimaginable ways.
I wonder: Where did this sense of calm, peace and freedom strike from? What held me back before?
The valuable lesson I’ve attained is to never stand in my own way or Don’t miss out on your blessings due to fear of new experiences that God has told you to pursue to in the first place. Always be obedient in all ways.
To my readers, you can expect all my future post to be a mixture of my thoughts, fears, struggles, successes and the many failures throughout my journey of this new experience in my life. And you can expect persistence throughout it all.